Not janitor
Did what you had to do
Would been a suicide homicide
I hate this
Edit:
Threesome
Felt like you were cheating on me
Makes me happy that I saw you again
“I don’t give a fuck about you”
Okay yeah sure to save you I have to end my own life.
Right, how the fuck does that help anyone?
What about my friends and family?
What about my future?
What about the things I still want to see in life?
In the world?
Fuck these stupid fucking voices from whatever source they come from I love me too and it’s obvious that I have to love myself more than I fucking love(d) you!
Even Moar
MOAR (signs)
Boston Marathon Bombing
You didn’t think of me at all.
Okay.
Voices say.
You know so fucking much
Miss fucking know-it-all over here
oh you know so fucking much
you know every fucking thing you need to fucking know about me
that’s why you’re a fucking Neo nazi know
so you can go back to talking about and generalizing other people
la-di-fucking-da!
This is like the 3rd time
This is like the 3rd time they say you’ve committed suicide….
This keeps going on
Graduation dinner
fingered yourself in front of my family
always wanted to tell me my art looks like crap
something else I don’t remember
edit:
oh god, its all the opposite, whatever shall I do, its like they want me going in circles, literally talking or writing about the same few scenarios over and over and over and over again and again and again and aagina.
Unfaithful
Apparently liking pics of other girls is being “unfaithful” to you…
Aren’t you married with a fucking child?
Why would you even care.
Your dumbass writes for a living and can’t respond to a fucking e-mail
Fuck off.
Signs/Reminders/Warnings/Visions
You shot me
Hostel in NY, after the blowjob
took out a gun and shot me in the head
nice
If you stayed
I wouldn’t have lived out my terrible 20’s the way I did.
I’m certain it would have been much different.
But you weren’t around
you weren’t here
I did what I had to
and I can’t change the past.
Dark Thoughts
Suicide after xanga break up
father fuck
“perfect size”
never wanted to get erect again
something something something stop fucking telling me this shit
you never wanted me to know this
YOU, FIRST
Voices say I don’t have what it takes to get back together with you because you’re suicidal.
I’m not trying to stop you from doing anything that you want to do.
I have my life in the palm of my hands ask I’m sure you have yours.
I hope you understand the meaning in that last sentence.
Alvvays- "Very Online Guy"
One of these niggas, idk
Deathnote
Apparently my name is in it… Apparently.
Called me the n-word
Hard r, at the airport, that’s why you were slapped
Breast Reduction
Voices keep saying you got a tit job, a breast reduction
Norwegians would be Extinct
If there were more black people like me, the voices say.
But from everything the voices have been saying, it sounds like Norwegians were a blight on the earth anyway, so good riddance.
You were a racist
Before you met me..?