Rather be Dead

Voices say you’d rather be dead than to be with me in Boston.

Again, I am not stopping you from doing what you want.

Edit: Voices are saying you would’ve tried to bite off my penis if I let you give me head.

Edit: Voices say I’m your “Fathers” erection so you don’t want to be with any men that can get erect. Okay.

Edit: Voices say your father would rape you if you were ever “peaceful” and this has to do with Black Metal somehow

Edit: Voices are saying I could’ve taken a picture of your father at the inn in NY and he would’ve “snapped out of it” but they’re also like pinning the blame on me like its my fault that I didn’t think to ask to do that!? Like what the fuck would I do with a picture of you and your family? Why would I want to have that? Yeah I “picked up on it” but they either didn't or pretended like they didn’t even understand English so how was I gonna get around that? Especially with you being fucking non-verbal most of the time I was in that goddamn room!?

Edit: Voices say you went to Argentina to save your younger sister/daughter from being gang raped by your father and other family members and your sister would not have survived. This would inspire Howards “Black Metal.” They say we can’t get back together because you would remember all of that and try to commit suicide (?) basically I would give you PTSD.

Edit: They say while I was typing that previous paragraph you went to go and suck off your father.

Edit: They say your “mother” would not allow that to happen to your younger sister/daughter but since you went back to them they allowed it to happen to you.

Edit: Now the topic of the conversation is changing, they said you had sex with two people at “that hostel” but which hostel? New York? Boston? Does it even matter? We “weren’t dating” or at least we didn’t have a label on us.

Edit: Voices say you would have rather been raped by every black man you’ve ever met up with.

Edit: would’ve fucked someone at that dojo, which one? Boston or the DR? Ugh…

Edit: The voices are saying you wouldn’t want to be sentient because if I visited you in the DR you’d want to run away to California and I’d end up joining the Bloods and you’re end up as “hoe” being passed around by the gang.

Edit: You did coke in that bathroom at the graduation dinner. Okay.

Edit: Correction, at the ICA.

Edit: Odin would jack off in the red shirt I gave you.

Michael Fonseca of Norway

I can’t find this guys real name, all I know is he was in my Future Learn courses at the University of Oslo online. Voices say you had sex with him, that he’s a “Mike Fonseca”

When I was in Jail he was in a commercial for another TV show but I haven’t seen anything of him since.

Edit: Voices say you can never be yourself, and also, that you can’t kill yourself until I kill myself, or something like that.

Edit: Now the voices are saying you were sexually assaulted (raped) everyday while studying for your degree by 8 different people.

Please tell me that

That you wanted to laugh so fucking hard when Steinar asked if I would marry you

Please tell me that’s true and not just a lie from my psychosis

Push us even further apart

NY Only

Voices say I would be the only one you wanted when you were in New York, as if your desires changed based on your location.

In Boston you’d want someone else,

The same for Norway, The Dominican Republic, etc etc

Shot in the back

Voices say after you sucked off the spare rib or his dick, one or the other, Steinar pulled out a gun and pulled the trigger to shoot me in the back.

Sticking Point

Voices keep trying to drive the point home that you’d just be a hoe in Boston and then try to kill yourself.

This is how I’m starting my day. Nice.

Edit:

Voices are also saying you’re into exhibitionism which you can only pull off in Norway, not the USA

edit:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C814LH6iA6T/?igsh=MWtxNnB1MzlpbTE4MQ==

Edit:

if it’s because I hit like on a stupid profile picture then fucking unblock me and I’ll unlike it and we can go on about our day

You were in on it

And you would have rather been Oare Wall that was with John and Malcom and Mike and maybe Jeremy and Aaron as well.

Voices say.

Bathroom Kiss

You actually did eat poop, not just the tootsie but also some feces

Your head exploded when I asked “did you brush your teeth after”

You’ve just been under someone’s control

Voices say

Edit:

This is also the day you had sex with someone and contracted herpes (graduation day)

Anal Training

Voices are telling me they’re training you for porn for some reason

Edit:

Back to talking about the “Australian girl” on the train, she had sex with a koala so i would’ve gotten chlamydia from her/you if i stuck around long enough to smash on the mbta?????

Actor

You want ME IN THE FLESH to be an actor or some already famous person to be “inspired by my energy” or some shit

You Fucked him on the Sidewalk

Right behind me, great

Edit:

“Would have” if I didn’t turn around the voices say

Edit: playful.

Pulled his pants down then ran to catch up with me.

Well we aren’t friends anymore either so I guess I don’t have to worry about that again.

Edit: Am I confronting him on Instagram tho. I don’t want to be a menace and confront him when he’s live on twitch, I already did it once.

Edit: this is hilarious, voices are saying you tied his shoelaces together lmao

Black Metal Themes

Voices say you’ll only fuck your father because he’ll make it hurt and that’s the inky way you can feel something.

Edit:

Voices say a shit ton of people are going to kill themselves in Norway after this entry, and then that leads to “necrophilia” not the way I described it in emails, where you just continue to love someone after they die, given how digging open graves is illegal.

Edit:

Voices say I’m in a love triangle with you and Odin. I’m good on that, you can just be with him or whatever.

Edit:

Gave Steinar a blowjob behind my back voices say as I walked into that inn in New York.

Wedding Day

Howard wore the dress, that’s why he’s abusive.

You don’t need anything.

In the pulpit you thought hot about Aaron Wall.

Okay.

Edit:

Voices say you got a BBL

Edit:

Voices say you shit yourself, again