Starting over

At some point in the day the voices got much quieter, but they’re still here.

I’m hoping to get some sleep tonight and maybe they’ll be gone or at least even quieter than they are now in the morning.

Take care.

Stagnate

What did you expect?

For me to just stagnate and die?

That I couldn't live without you?

I had to!

I was FORCED TO!

Did you really expect me to shrivel and become less than?

A Shadow of my former self?

I’ve lived that stage of life already.

Edit: Oh great now apparently I’m a dildo in your “mother’s” cunt. Amazing.

Edit: Fuck you and your stupid fucking rules and bets. Fuck you in a bad way. “Every time he writes I survive”

suck on a cactus.

Edit: Voices in my head say your “family” is in competition over me… weird.

They should be aware that I’m only thinking of one person, the person’s who’s name is literally on fucking everything.

This isn’t “playful” its stupid.

Shota(con)

Voices are saying you’d cheat on me with a kid, but they’ve also been regarding this word “shota” for a wild now, I think in reference to Japanese Hentai.

And, I know the woman they’re referring to, but they’re still using your name/likeness.

Human Life is that Cheap?

Any of these people were just expendable?

For what?

Shitty music?

Anyone around the world, was a simple sacrifice?

For love songs no one would comprehend?

Hilarious.

Voices say you’re waiting

Waiting for me to write something.

I did confront a lot of people about this.

This time it’s about the Boston Bowl, and they say I would’ve caught a “fatal bullet” quickly if I thought all you wanted to do was have sex/give me blowjobs in public.

Hell not even just me, considering how many of the voices in my head admit they wanted to fuck you as well.

Tragedy

Why the fuck are we living in this tragic reality?

This broken love triangle.

This odd love trapezoid.

You love him I love you he loves them they love me.

What the fuck.

And now they say you’ll commit suicide in front of me.

Why don’t they save us all the trouble and sh it the fuck up.

Valkyrie

Voices say you went through with a plot to kill Aaron Wall and his sister.

That you’re never allowed back into the USA.

Bringing it back

To me being a laughing stock, working on my portfolio in that apartment in Allston, trying to get into art school way back when.

You never wanted to be with me, the voices say.

Or that’s the opposite, I don’t wait long enough to find out

My question is

What are native New Yorkers doing living in a hostel?

If they have homes outside of the hostel, why stay at the hostel to begin with?

Stay Safe

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