Why can’t we be done

Voices are now saying you can’t leave Norway. Like you’re on a no fly list or some shit.

You could probably take a cruise but why can’t this just be over?

I really, really don’t want to force the issue with a new woman. I can see it now, just pent up trying not to talk to myself right next to her and she asks me “what’s wrong” and saying “nothing” is bad but what’s worse is saying “oh yeah I’m just thinking of this girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, a girl I was so madly in love with I lost my sanity over.”

That’s definitely not better.

You’re adopted

That’s why you can fuck your “father”

That’s why he can get erect when you pretend to suck his dick on a spare rib in a hostel

Edit: Yes, the voices said this, and if it’s true, it would make Howard’s “Black Metal” tame. It takes away the taboo of incest. It disrupts the political relationship of an adopted child certainly however, “incest”/step-sister, Brother, mother, father porn is all the rage currently.

Moar

Voices say if you wanted to commit suicide you’d have done it in my bed.

Something about being arrested for prostitution.

I’m getting ready for work.

Edit: I really don’t understand what Facebook has to do with this but I think it’s fucking stupid.

Edit: It’s always “someone else”

It’s always “the opposite”

I don’t fucking care

I just don’t want to think about

I don’t want to think about you

Just get out of my fucking head

Just Respect

You just respect me.

While the voices in my head tell me more and more about how incestuous your and yours can be.

I’m just the inspiration.

Just respect.

There’s not love left for me from your side of the court.

If we’re done, tell them to stop bringing you up.

Circles

You were supposed to be with Aaron/Annie Wall, you would’ve committed suicide in his bed.

After his sex change, his sister Oare Wall got a sex change.

Voices keep telling me these things, that they want to be together instead of him pretending to be me, and saying he wants to be with you more.

He supposed to have moved to Atlanta.

its one of the reason why you don’t want to be in Dorchester.

Something about rap and hip hop, Benzino, Mike Fonseca.

I wouldn’t want to be with you/whomever you are now, and even if I didn’t warn you that I was going to Norway, voices tell me you’d still have called a police officer.

Edit: Even former President Barack Obama is in my head playing “Everything I say is the opposite.”

Pokemon

Blowjob after blowjob then anger and what comes next?

No idea.

Can’t get a divorce cause you made a bet.

I guess that’s your bed to lie in then.

Reminders

The voices play foul tricks on me.

I’m trying to force back the warm and fuzzy feelings I get when I remember you, when I remember us.

It’s just a pain after pain after pain.

All I want is to move forward, and now, I’m being pulled again

constantly

in your direction.

Id write more but I’m at work. maybe later.

No clue

If you were talking to me you’d have a better idea about the content of my character, you sound as if you went and assumed the worst of me and now you’re starting to pay for it, Steinar

Promiscuous

I’ve tried to make peace with the idea that you were promiscuous all through Latin America and beyond.

Voices say you did, then didn’t.

It was you, then it’s someone else.

I’m not going to bother making heads or tails of it, you’re not even talking to me.

I want the answers I’m looking for straight froM the horses mouth, not hallucinations, and if I can’t get that, I don’t want anything.

Edit: stop being a voice in my head and just show me the heroes, please

Sex with a cop

Everyday, turned all the way up.

You could just not? Right?

Edit: I get it, I’m only one man. I’m not going to “magically heal you” with Black Dick and good vibes.

Edit: Steinar would’ve raped our child

You’d never be back in Boston, you’d commit suicide

Something something dark side

Edit: Voices keep telling me that every night at the hostel in Boston you had sex with someone after I left. They said you “cheated on me” each night, but, we know the deal.

I’m also too emotionally exhausted to find anger or sadness to aim at these hallucinations.

At the last minute they say it was “someone else” right before I begin to type, but again, this is all the care I can seem to muster, a care great enough to want to get it out of my head, put it somewhere else, so I can go back to not thinking about anything at all.

Is this “Monsters Inc.” ?

He needs to get energy from tortured peoples/emotions for inspiration? Like the monsters needed “scares” and eventually “laughter” to power their society???

Why

Why is this so fucking weird…

Edit: If you didn’t want me to experiment with drugs you should’ve stayed.

Edit: Now the voices are saying if you had stayed you’d have had sex with a drug dealer to get us high on something anyway.

Edit: VOICES SAY YOU HAD SEX WITH 8 PEOPLE AT THE HOSTEL, VOICES ALSO SAY “THIS IS WHAT WE’RE TRYING TO SHOW YOU” MOTHER FUCKING HOW DO I GET THEM TO STOP SHOWING ME!?”

Exhibitionism

Voices say you could just do it on Instagram like this chick. Technically she’s not nude, but she is wearing a see-through top.

How do I make this stop

Without dying

?

Edit: …I’ve been giving out so many fucking hand jobs…

Edit: Voices are saying Oare Wall if we were dating would want to just hang out in bed and masturbate all day… Why they’re bringing her up I have no idea, but the consequence of this is that the vagina would be beat red, tighten, and what I like to call “closed for business” and upon arriving home, if I wanted penetrative sex, it would be extremely painful, for her.

Edit: So MY suicide hinges on the end of the “Black Metal” album? MY Death? Amazing. As long as I’m present in my own mind, it’s not going to happen.

Edit: Why are you telling me Howards phallus is covered in scabs and blisters? For Black Metal? That’s not information for me, why am I being told this?!

Edit: “THAT IS WHY YOU’RE INSPIRATIONAL!”

TO WHAT?!

FOR WHOM!?

FOR WHAT?!

Edit: The video where I put on an accent and say “I’m gay now” I was honestly just trying to fucking provoke you. Do not think too hard about it. That’s the truth.

Edit: Voices keep saying I lost $100k after admitting that I’m not a fucking flaming homosexual. I don’t give a fuck. That’s two years worth of work, a stable paycheck for two years, the money will always be there as long as I’m willing to work for it.

Not “Bust My Ass” meaning to give up my butt for gay sex.

Or “Give a Job/Get A Job” where I’m really prostituting myself and using those words as a euphemism.

I’ll just find new work, preferably, hiring paying work, like I always do.