Why… why…

If I’m such a fucking joke…

If your “father” was orchestrating everything,

Why did we ever meet at all?

If this is all null and void please leave me to rot alone.

Please.

You want to stay turned up?

So other people can’t “become Dan Fairclough” ?

Are they just lined up or something? Is this a competition???

Edit: Deja is staying turned up for Mike, and they say there’s a “you” not me, but you, who I write to, in Boston that stays “turned all the way up” and is sleeping with a police officer cause he’ll just beat on her if she cheats or whatever and that’s what she wants.

K.

I hate this

my “Hell yeah” in New York in my aunts bed.

When you said “if you didn’t say it like that I wouldn’t know who you are”

they’re saying that my words weren’t from me, that they belonged and came from Mike Fonseca

that all this writing is me “being turned up”

that I’m over and yet somehow, my feelings are invalid because they’re being direct

WHAT THE FUCK IS REAL THEN!?

If this is just how life is I don’t want to be apart of it anymore

all I do is try to make the next day better than yesterday, THATS IT

WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Edit: in that same bed voices say that you were Jessica. what the hell…

Tranny

Voices say you got a sex change as well.

Edit: Voices are bringing up some fact or idea that you performed fellatio on a number of men at some hostel I don’t know when or how many or where

Edit: Voices are saying you gave a blowjob “as soon as you walked in” but I’m fairly certain I was with you so what? The straw and cup technique?

That one party…

Voices are telling me that in “audio” or you were “turned all the way up” to see me having sex with this one girl after a house party a few years back.

That you called Aaron Wall and ripped him a new one, which was the deciding factor in him being a transsexual…

I don’t get it.

Blowjob for Laptop

Can you find this mother fucker for me so I can fucking HIT HIM?!

CAN I JUST BEAT THE SHIT OUT IF SOMEBODY?!

WONT EVERYONE GET WHAT THEY WANT AFTER THAT?!?!?!?!?!

Sci-Fi

Now they’re saying you killed yourself in 1995 and the version of you I met is a clone they tried to make over 200 times before they made you…

Edit: voices are saying you’re either making a smoothie of apple seeds (cyanide) to kill yourself or trying to extract the deadly toxin from apple seeds to kill yourself.

Viagra Hostel Boston

Voices keep bringing up this threesome you supposedly had in Boston hostel

Where a girl drank some of that alcohol from your navel

They say you had a threesome

The guy had some boner pills (viagra)

This is the reason you wanted to have sex a few more times or something like that, I’m not trying to listen to it, I’m trying to get it out of my head

Edit: They’re saying you locked yourself in the bathroom and someone got fucked up the butt. My assumption it was another guy… wow.

Edit: Now they’re saying the bathroom story is the opposite and you were sexually assaulted.

Pacifically

I didn’t think I’d have to specify when I said “someone that loves me” that I’d want a woman. Like a cis woman, born a woman/girl/female.

Jesus Christ.

The One

Voices keep saying the one you wanted to be with, I assume the first person you admitted you loved, killed themselves at the moment or after your confession.

It’s one of the reasons why you’re “unfaithful” I suppose.

I have words for this but I suppose they’d fall on deaf ears, or blind eyes in this case.

But yeah no, I get why something like that would leave a lasting impact on you.

Three Words

Polyamory

Open Relationship

Edit: Voices say you’d rather stab yourself than compromise to any of those lifestyles, then what the fuck is the big idea?!

they say you can be faithful, but you won’t compromise, what the fuck do you want?!

Just go goddamn get it and leave me out of it already!!!!!!

Bended Knee

Fuck Typing

Bended Knee
Daniel Fairclough

Edit: Voices are saying you’d sample my voices memos so you can make shitty music for that shitty country.

Do it.

I dare you.

In between a rock (hard cock) and a hard life

More voices about arse knulling in Argentina.

Edit: Voices say you sucked so much cock at the NY Hostel they kicked you out. I wonder if they mean you caused a ruckus? They also said you eventually went to stay with that “Jets Player” only to find out he had a tiny apt, and lied about being a pro athlete.

Edit: Voices (for a while now) have been saying you “never want me to know anymore” so can you stop them??? Cause I can’t.

Edit: Once again voices say you’ve taken your own life… I’ll wait for them to flip the script in a few hours I suppose.

Edit: voices say you’ve been in my city the whole time waiting for me to become a celebrity so you can kill yourself