It was a thought or a dream

I think it was a thought but it could’ve been a dream, regardless, you appeared in my mind and I kept thinking “how was she so astute on guessing where my political alignment would fall later in life?”

for a long time I didn’t care, but I wonder now if in your country you’re made to care because the unions do so much for the people. We don’t get that kind of education here, not until college, but I’m sure you have a teachers union that’s superior to ours in some way, you see the need for human rights in regards to yourself as a people, a way for society to function and continue.

hard to do in America, what with all the diversity, but not impossible. In my recent readings I did learn there was a “Populist” movement for a time that was dissolved by identity politics from outside groups. I’m paraphrasing but still.

I’d like to talk to you, but the yearning isn’t there.

there’s “nebulous love” certainly but right now I suppose I’m saying it’s better that we’re apart, or maybe that I have this clarity.

I don’t know what I’m saying actually, but I hope you’re alright.

War and George Carlin

Are you seeing this right now? You’ve already disavowed being an American, but my mind keeps racing back to the day when you asked me on MSN messenger if Israel was a city or a state.

I wonder what you’d think of my Instagram stories, my support for Palestine. You said you wouldn’t want to be with anyone that sounded like George Carlin, and I wonder, how did you read me so well? Not that I sounded like him in my 20’s, but now, on my way out of my 30’s and with a bit more perspective, I could maybe pull off an act or two. Maybe.

I didn’t come to this blog to wax poetic however, I just wanted to dump some images that remind me of you, us, or myself thinking of you, and leave.

Edit: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DApP7xqM4UV/?igsh=aGp0dm16OGs2dzVz

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DArLrryyX6i/?igsh=MXVoeW1jaXRuNTVzOA==

Poetry from Class

“Nothing in progression can rest on its original plan. We may as

well think of rocking a grown man in the cradle of an infant.”

All But Blind

All but blind

In his chambered hole

Gropes for worms

The four-clawed Mole.

All but blind

In the evening sky

The hooded Bat

Twirls softly by.

All but blind

In the burning day

The Barn-Owl blunders

On her way.

And blind as are

These three to me,

So, blind to Some-One

I must be. [1901]

WALTER DE LA MARE (1873-1956)

Breakup

That streamer and his Norwegian gf broke up.

I’m stunned, but not surprised, mostly because he’s rich, far richer than I am, but you Norwegian women, if you’re anything, you’re a decisive bunch.

As I was watching his video about the breakup, I recalled that astrological report I sent to you on xanga, and since I did it at the “zero hour” not knowing your date of birth, I recall it saying something like “you’d change your culture.”

At first I thought this would benefit me.

I thought it meant that you and women your age would opt to stay with foreign men, instead of, what you told me, cheat on their husbands on holiday.

No.

Now it seems as if you’d find those men you’d normally find on holiday, have a relationship with them, and then breakup and start life as a Norwegian woman, as a woman that “loves her country.”

Perhaps that was the cultural shift, for the Norwegian patriarchy to reclaim or win back their women.

No race/culture desires to go extinct, I suppose.

Interesting.

Additional thoughts at 4:04AM:

And what’s the end game in all this? If I continue believing it’s some “conspiracy” and for these women to return to their darker skinned lovers, later in life, after child rearing or when relationships have gone sour, is that a “fuck you” to us? To the culture of the past?

I know I know, “it’ll never happen” for you and I, sure, let’s go with that, but this guy, the streamer, he was with her for nearly 15 years.

Yes, “nothing lasts forever” but still, that’s a significant amount of time if you ask me. And I’m sure they’ve had all the talks about children and marriage but is this it? Was this really some grand plan? Or just another convenient string of coincidence.

I don’t believe it was some grander plan but if I did I ponder the end result of it.

A Quote

“To Generalize is to be an Idiot. To Particularize is the Alone Distinction of Merit.” - William Blake

"We think in generalities, but we live in detail ” - Alfred North Whitehead

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C_t4gK2sjPA/?igsh=MWRqbXo3MWdpYzE=

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C_n5EKMviwv/?igsh=ODljMjhjMm9nMDh3

Hmm

https://x.com/rainmaker1973/status/1832754508231016757?s=46

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C_q2MBoR7-S/?igsh=dTVxY2I3a2U5cGtq