What’s up party people in the place to be?! It’s ya boi!
Today is the first day of July, and it is hot as hell.
Recently I’ve been struggling a lot with my psychosis. I’m been updating that other blog “X” with all of my insights but I caught myself the other day saying “I wish I could believe what the voices say.” I wish because sometimes they tell me my ex loves me, that I will get what I want, that she’s a millionaire, that we will work things out and get back together. As much as I’d like to be delulu about things like that, I know, objectively speaking, you can’t expect that from someone that refuses to speak with you on all fronts, formats and platforms.
If I want to be delulu about anything, I think it’s more practical to be delusional about getting a high paying job straight out of college, once I complete my degree program. So far, that’s looking like the year of our Lord, 2028.
I’ve also been struggling a bit with anger. Like I think back to times when people have done me wrong, and it’s not many people, but still, and I think that I should try and get revenge on them, but I know that causing any physical harm to someone will only drag my life down as well. The best thing to do is just forget about it, even if it seems like I can’t forgive these people.
Recently, as recent as yesterday I finished a 30 day drawing challenge on my “Art” instagram instagram.com/yahomiedoodles where I was tasked to draw mushroom themed images according to a prompt sheet, every day of June. I completed the challenge, and uploaded the works to this website as well, but my partner in the challenge didn’t complete it at all. He drew a few and then tapered off somewhere, like he hasn’t submitted a drawings since like day 10. This saddens me because he’s a great artist and I would like to work with him for paid projects, but this challenge was his idea to begin with and he still didn’t finish it, so I think its best to avoid trying to depend on him for art, unfortunately.
These are the most pressing things on my mind, that and making sure I complete my work for my summer classes.
I hope you all reading, every last one of you, is doing well yourselves!
See you in the next one!