The voices repeat themselves but not as rapidly.
They bring me back to the past and try to measure how I feel about it, how I respond to my memories in the present.
It’s a cycle of pain.
Remembering, loving, quieting or killing my emotions-
Over and over and over and over and over and over again and again and again and again and again.
Did I mention the manga “Soul Eater” by Atsushi Ohkubo?
In that manga, the final “power up” the main characters get is accepting “insanity.”
That’s how I feel right now.
I’ve accepted that I’m probably going to be or going to be seen as “crazy” for the rest of my life, but I think I’ll be fine as long as I don’t try to hurt anyone.
As long as I don’t try to find or talk to you.
As long as I don’t go and try to get “revenge” against every voice in my head that I recognize.
I think that’s the path I need to be on, or at least it’s the one I’ve followed until now and it’s kept me out of trouble.
I have a job.
I have responsibilities.
The world won’t wait for me just because I ain’t got my head screwed on tight enough.
Nope!
Time stops for no one.