Watching this legal battle between two streamers, man and a woman and they were in a relationship and he’s suing her for defamation and she’s claiming sexual assault.
He started crying while explaining it, and for some reason my mind went back to when I took that trip to Norway.
Of course some guy going crazy across the world could be that kind of a threat. Of course.
I really wasn’t able to think about anything, is my defense. I was running on pure emotion, feeling, urges.
And while I don’t think I would’ve assaulted you, yeah, given what little I know or knew about you, for one, this didn’t seem like a novel experience for you or for people in your friend group, and two, I understand if you thought I had ulterior motives.
2026 marks being 8 years away from 2018, and while I haven’t bought a gun I am further away from where I was mentally back then, at least I think I am, it feels like I am.
Yeah some things still bug me and I come to this blog but otherwise, what else is there? I need to vent, and I don’t want to shop around for a therapist. Therapy just doesn’t feel real, doesn’t feel like it works, and my problem is that I need to get it out of my system, get you out of my head, it’s not like I’m struggling with ideas that you still love me and will come back or some shit.
Not at all, despite the voices insistence in it.
Anyway.