It’s pissing me off going back and forth about these future “what if” scenarios as if I’m trying to think them up while I’m on the clock, just to make the time go by faster.
For some reason I’m recalling this movie starring Sasha Grey, former pornstar, “The Girlfriend Experience” from 2009 I guess, and in the final scene of the movie she just hugs this dude and he nuts.
As if that would happen between me and you. I have no idea what would happen if you came into my life, but I’d doubt I’d be that much of a limp dick quick shot.
I feel fucking ANGRY more than I feel happy or even sad, and honestly I don’t know what to do with this anger. Most of the time I just sit with it until it passes, until I think or find something that I can laugh at or about, but this gamut of emotional tug-of-war is getting old.
Here’s the scene from the movie, I think it’s in Spanish. You’ll have to skip to around 1:48: