Voices have been quiet or, in the background for the last few days but today they keep repeating “better off”
If you want to be with (your name) you have to have been “better off” - and what I assume it trails off into is “better off without her [in your life] “
I’m, trying to focus on losing wight right now, since my school term is coming down to about the last two or three years, God willing.
I’m starting to see the end of this journey, light at the other side of the tunnel, and the possibility of what the future could hold with nothing dangling over my head.
I’m excited to jump into my art projects, investing, and really enjoying my summer and winters, maybe a bit of traveling and then new job opportunities.
This isn’t about you anymore, its really about me being excited with quiet anticipation for the end of what would have been 10-15 years of school work just chasing a bachelors degree, but of course with taking one class at a time and paying out of pocket, and of course that also means, not attending when I couldn’t pay, but it’s almost, finally fucking over.
I’m happy to have accomplished this. Once my investing starts to bear fruit I’ll look into buying a car and start driving again, go places I want to see in and out of state.
Life is good.
I wouldn’t say “better off without you” because I’d love to share in these same joys or more with you,
but even without you that hasn’t stopped life from being good.