In my last post I said you were engaging in incest with your father in Argentina, the voices said “no, thats the opposite” it was with Howard, your brother.
Incest is Incest.
Just because the person was closer in age doesn’t make it better.
And if it is about this other person why do they keep mentioning you? Because she’s “the opposite” I mean I don’t give a fuck about her so why tell me at all? Why does this madness attempt to fill my mind?! Have I not yearned enough? DO I HAVE TO MAKE A SECOND TRIP TO NORWAY AND GET ARRESSTED AGAIN!?
I mean FUCK I know they’ll arrest me BECAUSE I REMEMBER. I may get as far as my hotel room this time and they knock on the door and ask me a series of questions and maybe they don’t put me in jail but they do “keep and eye on me” to see if I go anywhere near your job, IF, you still work there.
I have half the mind to think that since my first crime of passion to keep you and potentially anyone else there safe they stopped updating their webpage…
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In other news, I remember you reading a book the last time I saw you. I don’t recall what it was about, maybe fantasy, but one year for Christmas or just out of the blue, my aunt gave me a present, a box full of fantasy books and at the time I thought she had done some research on you, somehow, and got all of your favorite books in that series.
I donated all the books to my local library, because I wanted a laptop, but now I’m desperately trying to find the books online so I can read them, outside of the idea that it will connect me closer to you, no, not that, it’s just that I’m in the beginning stages of my career as a writer and I can reference these books to help me with world building. I thought I kept at least the Encyclopedia/Anthology book in the collection she sent me but I can’t find it now.
All in all, I’ve gone down a rabbit hole of “great fantasy book series from the 80’s” like I’m going to add all of them to my wishlist as if I haven’t given myself enough things to read. Ugh.