I’m listening to music on the train, and in the left side of my head I felt something, and then this thought came rushing in, this “fearful” sensation that we’ll never see or meet or be together ever again.
But when I pull back from that, it’s been over 10 years of mostly radio silence.
It’s irrational to start being “afraid” of that now, if anything I’m comfortable with it.
This is just as irrational as holding out hope that we’ll be together again.
Why did I feel that?
Where does it come from?