Voices are saying that they would love if I forgot you, and anyone related to you, by blood or otherwise.
Voices don’t seem to understand that generally, save for your birthday, I do my best not to think of you.
I’m still trying to live my own life, it’s not as if my “world revolves around you.” That’s not the case at all.
How could it be? After everything that’s happened to the almost emptiness I feel now, in this moment, how could I fall into some trap thinking I’d need to just “wait it out” like eventually you’d come around?
That would be the height of folly.
Time waits for no one, and time is money.
Even if I never date again or get married I still have to put food on the table for myself, right?
And it’s not even like I’m against dating.
I was seeing this girl up until last week since November of last year but I decided to call it off for personal reasons, but now I realize that yes, I do want to love again, I do want companionship again and I will try to find it.
It would be a blessing if I could talk to you about what’s wrong with me but you’ve had every opportunity to tell me your not interested, and I should listen to you.