I’m getting jealous.
In my head there’s this inkling, this possibility that you’d cheat on me with one or multiple of my current friend group.
This is highly illogical. Like enough for me to step back and just say “what the fuck.”
And I know, I wrote that shit storm of all these sexually deviant thoughts and behaviors in so many documents in the past, but this is really odd, with all the logic that I have, the knowledge of what is reality, why am I thinking and feeling this?
And then, I go to my recent post about Quantum Entanglement and I think maybe I’m picking up on someone on your side of the world, with feelings for you, your current partner, and his or their insecurities?
Because I shouldn’t have these feelings.
What I REMEMBER of you, you weren’t remotely interested in anyone else while we were together, in any of the situations I brought you in.
I mean I have pictures I can see it on your face, so why?
Of course, you’re a “different person” now, but hell, this “new” you, whomever they are, they/you aren’t even interested in me, so that makes this even more ludicrous.
I’m just writing just to write at this point.
I’m also gonna try to finish my Norwegian Language lessons.
I want closure for that as well.