Voices keep bringing up when you have your “father” a blowjob in front of me at the hostel.
Voices say you “would’ve done anything to stay yourself” and “That’s why you shouldn’t want to be someone else”
There’s a lot going through my mind, how if this is true, and I’m some totem made man that reminds you sexual assault, fine, stay away from me, but another part of me thinks “that’s impossible, there must have been something else going on.”
I’m at work, just trying to make ends meet, but I have to write this out of my mind because it’s dragging me back to a time and place that doesn’t exist anymore and doesn’t want me there.