It’s been a while since I’ve smoked and drank in excess.
Some friends are over, and we’re partying the way that we do.
I feel like you’d like one of my friends, more than me, it pisses me off.
And then I think about the other people from your side of the world that I’m okay with, and laying bare the truth of my expeditions.
I think about having sex with you with my friends over.
Kissing you.
All these thoughts ring through my head as I drain the lizard, and I laugh.
Of course I’m thinking of you, if any of the last 72+ hours make a difference, of course I’m think g of you, even if I don’t want to be.
But I’m not thinking of anyone else.
I’ve prevented myself from thinking of anyone else.
It might be a good idea to change that, but also, I don’t think I’m in any position to.
Cheers!