It’s 3:18AM
June 8th, 2024
I’m watching a YouTube video and the voices morphed the speakers in the video to say
“Uh Yahomied I understand how you feel but I am not interested”
“And you are not Ingeborg”
“If her husband left she would be devastated”
And-
I don’t know where this comes from, and I don’t need it.
You said you were an atheist and I’m not blaming god or anything but I’d like to know why the “Universe” or “Karma” or whatever you can explain away as a higher power is playing with my head and heartstrings.
Because I feel like two different people or more in one body.
I’ve said this before: I know all the logical and rational reasons why we aren’t “us” but is there something else in me calling out to the abyss for more reasons?
Something, someone other than the conscious mind I normally occupy?
What is this?
What is the brain?
What is mind?
Soul?!
It’s so vexing.
But I’m beyond madness now.
So long as I keep taking my medication at least.