This word keeps filtering through my head.
Would’ve raped it.
Raped on your wedding night.
Sex with other people you’d rather consider rape.
It goes on and on and on, the same word, scenarios, right after another.
I don’t want to rape you, I don’t want to rape anyone!
Consensual Sex, two people agreeing to pleasure one another, that’s the ideal, and I feel like I’ve said something along these lines in a fucking email, so why on god’s green earth am I hearing this, because I’m not deliberately thinking it!!!
God fucking dammit.
Specifically now, the morning in New York, when you asked me “would you ever want to do this again?”
and I responded “Hell Yeah.”
Then I apologized for saying it like that and you said "No, if you didn’t I wouldn’t know who you were” or something like that.
Yeah, I was erect, BUT I WOULDN’T RAPE YOU, I DIDN’T! Your back was turned to me, you were curled up, IN NO WAY WERE YOU ENGAGING IN SEXUAL BEHAVIOR!
THIS IS LIKE THE SECOND REAL LIFE SCENARIO WHERE I’M BRICKED UP AND READY TO FUCK AND YOU ARENT SO I DIDNT"
WHY AM I HEARING THIS SHIT