I wrote once on my xanga blog “Authentic_Black_Dragon” :
“Once a cheater, always a cheater”
I was a teenager that thought he knew everything about the world.
People can change, and I know that now.
Some people do, some people don’t, but it is possible.
Just because a mental illness prevented you from holding down a job doesn’t mean you can’t get another one.
Just because you were homeless doesn’t mean you can’t find housing, etc.
But this is a hypothetical relationship, where we hypothetically get back together, and hypothetically you tell me the “truth” and hypothetically or at least according to the voices it’s about how you went “ape” at one of the many hostels you stayed at and had an orgy.
Again, not my words, the voices.
But like they title says, this is Schrodingers Relationship, I’m writing as if I’m in a relationship with you, while knowing I’m not in a relationship with you.
I can go and do what I want with whomever I want, but the voices and the emotional turmoil of that makes that feel like its impossible.
We won’t truly know where we stand until you stop freezing me out.
That’s really it.
Although it feels rather obvious where we stand, I don’t have to sit here and hold out hope for the best possible outcome, but that’s what the voices make me feel, or want me to feel.
ANYWAY!