I don’t know if we have the potential for a relationship or if you hate me and will never ever see me again.
However, I have evidence, I suppose, of one of these outcomes, the latter, but the voices are saying “that was the opposite.”
My psychosis is evolving, ever changing, gaining new insight and details into what’s going on, on your side of the world.
Whatever piece of me, alien or otherwise that’s holding on to you makes me care about this, but logically I should just cast this aside like garbage, but I can’t seem to do that, or at least, what actually happens is like a video game, damage over time. Say, I’m poisoned with thoughts of you, and while one storyline of my psychosis might not be anything to worry about, overtime the stories build up and I have to do something with the feelings that build up with the hallucinations/delusions. If that makes sense.
So I have evidence that we’ll never see each other again. Fine.
Be that as it may, and I didn’t want to make this a birthday post, I keep hearing that Howard can’t get an erection. Similarly, they said the same thing about ABWJr, or that he didn’t want to get erect, sometimes saying he wished he could get erect.
I keep thinking of all the ads I saw for male enhancement pills, over and over again and, granted while I was going crazier, I noticed that Howard doesn’t have much of a presence on social media, not much of a digital footprint. so if he can’t get erect, or hasn’t investigated male enhancement drugs, its because he isn’t online.
But the other reason he can’t get erect might be because of the curse of being closely related. While there may be many Howards I know I met one, and I know the one you looked at in that photo with all 3 of us, so I assume it’s him, and if it’s him, he’s your brother, and it makes sense.
Still, had he considered male enhancement it’s a double-edged sword, because no doubt he can probably get erect for someone he isn’t related to, naturally, so long as he’s attracted to them, because if he uses “dick pills” he might run the risk of chemical dependency, or, chemical castration.
And now my mind is clear.
I keep hearing the voices say about me “he can get erect” every time I go to jerk off. It’s odd, and I’ve been hearing it for a while now, but I suppose the “poison damage” of these hallucinations has finally done critical damage. Really it’s like Psychic Damage… Poison Psychic Damage… lol