Voices just told me that at some point you had come back to Boston to be with ABWjr.
Great.
I hope it was everything you’d dream it would have been.
Now if you could, since you are somehow an important person in my mental illness, kindly tell the voices in my head that the best way to get over you, is to not mention you at all, I would greatly appreciate that.
That’s all I want.
I don’t want to write to you.
I don’t want to love you.
I don’t want to try and start a new relationship with you, and you know why, or you have some idea.
I want to be left alone, with my own thoughts, in my head, and not these alien voices making you the center of my fuckign universe 24/7.
P.S.
I’m not saying that I don’t love you, I do, but I don’t want to, because I want to love someone that will return love to me. THat’s all.
This tug of war I’m playing with myself is pointless and somehow I can’t stop it.