“Family”

Voices just told me not to write on this blog because I’m a part of some “family” and to that I ask, which family specifically, in what context and how does that relate to you?

They say Howard has to turn all the way up his to speak English.

Worlds are colliding.

Romeo and Juliet

The killers song on xanga. Voices say if you stayed you would’ve killed yourself and then they would’ve “turned me all the way up” to see if I’d follow suit and kill myself as well, just for “Black Metal”

Over and Over Again

Edit: Why am I hearing things only someone else should know then? Voices say you cucked your husband. He walked in on you having sex with someone else. But wasn’t he also cheating on you when he went to the bars? Why am I hearing all of this… how does this pertain to me?

Edit: Now they say it’s the opposite, and your husband was fucking someone else. OKAY.

Norwegians Access Internet Code

Voices say you’re in a relationship with whomever accessed a saved tweet on google image search under my name that had your full name in it. How that’s possible, I have no idea.

Edit: Voices say I won’t see you unless I move out of the city of Boston… well I guess I’m not going to see you for a while then…

Playing the Drums on your Corpse

Voices say that was the inspiration for Howards “Black Metal” he wanted to play the drums on your dead body.

What was he gonna skin you and stretch your skin into drums?

Horrible.

Edit: He wanted to make a drum set out of his entire family. Disturbing.

Snowballed him

To put the gun away you gave Steinar a snowball

you know what that is from the urban dictionary definition I shared so long ago

ew

ew ew ew ew ew

Edit:

Voices say when the prime minister turned you all the way up you raped a child.

I didn't delete it

Voices in my head are talking about that google document where I was telling you my location, time stamp, and what was going on in my head.

I still have it.

If you really want to know, I’m at work right now.

My hours are second shift, 3PM-11PM, and sometimes I cover other shifts, Mon-Friday.

You’ll be fine, if I’m really your “inspiration” like the voices say.

If you’ve made it this far, you’re either as strong as I am, or as crazy as I am.

God Speed.

Flies can give head?

What is this some new form of Monster Girl Hentai these voices are talking about?

They say you were “buzzing” when they made you feel like a “fly on the wall” and then you gave someone a blowjob turned all the way up and did cocaine.

Living the dream.

Edit: Monster Girl Encyclopedia

Stanford University

Voices were saying you were attending Stanford University in New York… Stanford is in California.

They were also saying something along the lines of like, you were/are in Boston, nearby, but was arrested for drinking in public. That if someone “turned you up” you’d try to have sex with my brother.

Anyway.

Edit:

Voices say now you’re dating a cheerleader.

Whatever dude.

Cheating on you

Okay, yeah sure, every time I hit like on a girl that isn’t you on Instagram I’m fucking cheating on you. Fan-fucking-tastic, I’m being fucking unfaithful, sure, laugh it up, ha ha fucking ha.

I’m gonna keep fucking cheating on you until we’re physically back together and I get that blowjob all these fucking voices keep going on about.

🖕

EDIT:

IS THIS FUCKING DONE YET?! NOW THEYRE SAYING YOU NEVER WANT TO LEAVE NORWAY BECAUSE YOURE GETTING EVERYTHING/EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT!!!

IS THIS DONE YET?! WILL THEY FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!??!!??

Edit: Voices are saying you’d ruin my life if we got back together. Okay.

edit: specifically, that you’d get herpes, give it to me and then light my house on fire with one of my stuffed animals.

Edit: Made out with Zoya on graduation day then pushed her/knocked her out when you saw her herpes infection. Reasons to not be a lesbian even if I don’t get mad at that.

edit:

Voices say somehow you got herpes anyway. Your “dad” gave it to you, figured out how to give it to you, via a guy he hooked you up with or something else, idk.

The Indian

Voices say you immediately met up, didn’t make him wait for 3 hours, made out and he ate you out.

okay.

Edit: Voices say I would t want you now, you would be opiates. They’re also equating being on opiates to the feeling of love, because I suppose they both activate oxytocin in the brain. Silly.

Edit: voices say you wish I kept that screen shot from M’s Instagram story so you could jump off that balcony at the concert a few years ago.

Wedding Rape

Why are they telling me this?

Edit: Not only do they want me to “give up on you” (pretty sure I have, idk) they are telling me this to get me to give up on life, I guess.

Black Metal 2

Apparently, the contents or themes of “Black Metal” have to be so brutal, so disturbing that you would not feel as if you were able to express it, outside of song form.

So no speaking to a therapist or a friend

no writing it down

it just comes out in the instrumentation and lyrics, if there are lyrics, and then the lyrics themselves may be unintelligible.

Got it.