Symptom Stopper

Voices say you wanted me to stop having psychosis, and it feels like it’s happening right now, idk that or I’m getting enough sleep.

They still say that you’re going to kill yourself, which is sad in a way, but we both know how powerless I am when it comes to you doing the things you want to do.

Maybe I’ll see you in the next life.

Take care.

Car Accident in Boston

Voices say the day you were in Boston, when you let go of my hand and ran into the street, when the car almost hit you, if I had a credit card you would’ve taken it to buy a ticket to, somewhere, idk, and have run away from me.

I vaguely remember giving you my wallet but still…

It’s fucked up, but what isn’t fucked up in my head right now.

I don’t want to think or have to care about this.

Like yeah it’s a bad hit but I’m not even certain about what freaked you out so badly. Like I know why I saw, thought and felt but that girl is dead now… and even if she weren’t it’s not as if I can co front her about it, because apparently everyone doing this shit has no recollection of the events, or is lying to me.

So you can see and understand just how maddening this is for me.

Anyway.

Edit: They say “Steinar” “turned all the way up” to get you to steal my credit card. Glad I didn’t have one back then…

Whore 2.0

Voices keep going on and on about how you’d never be in Boston without being turned all the way up because you’d be slow and a hoe.

They’ve been saying this for like the last few hours, kind of baiting me to type it out.

I was in the kitchen eating strawberries tho, and I didn’t have my phone.

The voices have been a bit easier to deal with, I apologize for the recent e-mails, sometimes they get the best of me.

Deliberately

Voices say after the night you gave the blowjob for your laptop, you would deliberately close it/put it away before engaging with dudes at the hostel. So whatever you did with them, the laptop was safe first

Edit: voices say you vomited on someone

Big Fish in Norway

The scenario laid out if I was an ex pat in Norway:

voices say you’d just want me to sleep around with people, effectively a becoming a common ancestor, but everyone I sleep with would be someone else’s partner, they just can’t get it up anymore because of how closely related they are.

But I can also imagine all of my offspring/children being raped or molested due to that cultural inclination for revenge, and if my kids/offspring develop mental disorders, personality complex’s or become suicidal and kill themselves because of said revenge, what was the point of being a common ancestor to begin with?

Lmao

Longest Email Ever

Voices in my head said you’ll “never be a Fairclough” and you’ll send me the longest suicide note ever as an email.

Okay.

Ready when you are.

Edit: You also admitted that you are a monster

Why… why…

If I’m such a fucking joke…

If your “father” was orchestrating everything,

Why did we ever meet at all?

If this is all null and void please leave me to rot alone.

Please.

You want to stay turned up?

So other people can’t “become Dan Fairclough” ?

Are they just lined up or something? Is this a competition???

Edit: Deja is staying turned up for Mike, and they say there’s a “you” not me, but you, who I write to, in Boston that stays “turned all the way up” and is sleeping with a police officer cause he’ll just beat on her if she cheats or whatever and that’s what she wants.

K.

I hate this

my “Hell yeah” in New York in my aunts bed.

When you said “if you didn’t say it like that I wouldn’t know who you are”

they’re saying that my words weren’t from me, that they belonged and came from Mike Fonseca

that all this writing is me “being turned up”

that I’m over and yet somehow, my feelings are invalid because they’re being direct

WHAT THE FUCK IS REAL THEN!?

If this is just how life is I don’t want to be apart of it anymore

all I do is try to make the next day better than yesterday, THATS IT

WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Edit: in that same bed voices say that you were Jessica. what the hell…

Tranny

Voices say you got a sex change as well.

Edit: Voices are bringing up some fact or idea that you performed fellatio on a number of men at some hostel I don’t know when or how many or where

Edit: Voices are saying you gave a blowjob “as soon as you walked in” but I’m fairly certain I was with you so what? The straw and cup technique?

That one party…

Voices are telling me that in “audio” or you were “turned all the way up” to see me having sex with this one girl after a house party a few years back.

That you called Aaron Wall and ripped him a new one, which was the deciding factor in him being a transsexual…

I don’t get it.

Blowjob for Laptop

Can you find this mother fucker for me so I can fucking HIT HIM?!

CAN I JUST BEAT THE SHIT OUT IF SOMEBODY?!

WONT EVERYONE GET WHAT THEY WANT AFTER THAT?!?!?!?!?!