What’s good in the hood party people in the place to be?
First and foremost, Happy New Year, 2026!
I have been battling with a bout of psychosis that seems to have shown its face over the holiday and I do not know why. I think I asked my doctor to increase the dose of my medication but I don’t think I picked that up. I think it’s still 10mg when it should be 15. Either way that’s a quick fix, just a message in MyChart, or I have the pills behind my TV with other surplus pills from when I wasn’t taking my medication. I did this to myself I suppose…
What’s new what’s new what’s new…
Apparently I was sexually assaulted while I was black out drunk? According to the voices in my head, but the people that were party to the plot are no longer persons in my life so, I have to move on whether that did or did not happen. Had I known I doubt my life would change significantly. And, it’s not like, I got fucked up the butt, just that someone tried to give me a blowjob and I didn’t get it up. Oh well.
Been buying a ton of games recently, don’t know when I’ll get the chance to play but I got the games. I’m also planning on getting the Steam Machine whenever that releases. I think I will use that and substitute it for a desktop PC.
Japanese lessons are slow going but, nonetheless, going, and that reminds me I need to do a Duolingo activity before the day is over cause I don’t have any more streak freezes…
Alright aside from all of that, life isn’t really bad, I just have to figure out a way to come out on top of these voices. The most obvious answer is to take stronger medication, if I have that. I just keep revisiting my ex in my mind without wanting to, she’s just the subject of my madness and although I’ve done everything in my power to prove to her that my feelings are true, that doesn’t mandate that she returns them. I understand that, completely, so I don’t understand why the voices in my head won’t let me move on. Why can’t I just forget?
Ah well.
I will sedate myself I suppose.
Peace Out Girl/Boy Scouts, I hope your new year started off better than mine!