Whats so weird about this is that I have this weird ass feeling that every time my back is turned you’re fucking and sucking someone else.
Like why do I have such strong feelings for someone that wants my complete and total destruction?
And in all the scenarios I don’t know if I remember correctly
on the sidewalk with Dashawn
at the Starbuck with Dashawn
When Dashawn grabbed your arm
walking out of my aunts place in the Bronx
every time I left you alone at the hostel in New York and Boston
and I KNOW you don’t like Dashawn because I have a photo of you making a face at him in a picture with you
Like why is my assurance, my confidence in your character being OVERIDDEN by PARANOIA AND HOPE!?
LIKE YOU’LL EVER GET BACK TOGETHER WITH ME WHEN YOU WONT EVEN RESPOND TO ME WHEN I ASK YOU TO JUST TELL ME I’M GOING TO BE OKAY!?
THATS WHAT I WANTED!!!
THATS ALL I FUCKING ASK FOR!!!
THATS WHAT I’M SCREAMING INTO THE FUCKING VOID ABOUT!!!
AND ALL THESE VOICES KEEP DOING IS PULLING ME ONE WAY THEN THE OTHER THEN BACK AGAIN!!!
THIS IS SO
FUCKING
DIFFICULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!