The voices have been mentioning you all day today, I feel like even if I take my medication, I can’t escape this new chapter that I’m in, and I’m hesitant to ask the doctor to increase my dosage, since I’m on an opiate and I already think I have a chemical dependency on it. That is to say, if I don’t take it for long enough, I can’t sleep.
The voices also go around telling me things you do and don’t do, things you remember, things you love. All of these totems, rituals, acts, objects, that represent me in your life, but nothing to avail me of my yearning. Some yearning in me that comes from beyond my conscious mind. Some cry of the soul that I turn to see and turn back from.
I’m going in circles. I’m feeling in circles.
Maybe I’m wiring in circles..?
The voices say your “husband” dumped out all of your medication, but this is a great reason to call your doctor, explain the event, and see if there is anyway your doctor could find you temporary or maybe permanent housing to escape an abusive relationship.
I don’t know if any of what the voices are saying is true, you yourself described it as “illusive ranting” (or maybe that wasn’t you, specifically) but if it is true, if any of it is true, that’d be my solution.
I have a headache.