Voices in my head say you don’t want to be in a relationship with me because you’ve done everything I suggested. Once again, I wonder why you don’t have any agency of your own in my psychosis, because the you I know, the one I remember, didn’t want to do anything she didn’t want to do.
Right now, the voices are saying you’re trying to be a Victoria secret model, and as a result, aged yourself because this exacerbated your eating disorder.
I can’t confirm or deny these things, only you can, what I can do is recognize that I’m hallucinating.
The problem with my medication is that I can’t or shouldn’t drink alcohol when I take it. And apparently it can take up to 7 days to leave my system after I take a pill. I don’t want to give up booze because the only thing left is nicotine, snus, which has a connection with you, because I definitely won’t smoke cigarettes, and smoking weed, while doable, is dumb.
If I could do mushrooms legally I’d probably do that instead. Ah well, I’ll send a letter to my doctor and see what she has to say.