I don’t think I even get out half of the thoughts and things I say about you or in regards to you throughout the day. Mostly I’ve been dealing with writing down the psychosis, but I just said a few minutes ago
“No when I was moving on she wasn’t an every present thought every second of every day”
And now I just had a scenario in my mind where I’m in a relationship and you come back into my life and I try to make it work with my new partner and you as a friend and we have a threesome and then I think
“After all of this time, if she wanted to be back in your life, she would’ve been by now”
But logic alone does not stop the yearning. It’s doesn’t put a cork in my bleeding heart, it doesn’t sew shut my imagination to keep all these thoughts and ideas from pouring out.
Sucks.
More illusion ranting for you.