When I watch videos or listen to audio, like the radio, people talking to one another they say things like
“You wouldn’t want to be with (insert your name)”
“(insert your name) is over you”
“(insert your name) has been cheating on you”
And sometimes they mention other peoples names.
I can’t really control this, all I can do is take my medication and not smoke marijuana.
It’s little things like this that kind of chip away at the stone I use to guard my heart, so I don’t relapse and take another trip to Norway.
Like emotional or mental erosion, every time I hear your name.
It’s easy to see why this can, uphold the “myth” or “madness” of me still loving you.
whatever the truth is, I wanted to write this down, in the even of some untimely death I hope, at least, that my words and ramblings on my psychosis can help people understand this diagnosis more.