In my mind it sounds as if they’re forcing you to relieve traumatic moments of your life and that makes you staunchly double down on being a wretch.
It’s not working for either side, but you’re just fine with the way things are, in fact, I believe you could even go as far as to make things worse, couldn’t you?
Of course, this is me reacting to madness, and not necessarily reality.
I don’t even know what’s real.
I still have a job though lmao