Can’t see clearly

Voices say every time you try to take an action in regards to me, they turn you up so much so that it blurs your vision, effectively disabling your attempts to do anything.

edit: they say you can only be with me as a radio form, changing my music once in a while to be reminded of you

Australian Girl

Voices say that was you, and that you always wanted to be deported. So after I passed you on the train you sucked off a cop or something and got sent back home

Hog Tied

Did you go back to Argentina? Or is it that I’M “You” as in who I’m writing too… whatever

I did get tied up, did you get tied up? No way this happened in Argentina, it had to have happened after.

Edit:

No you do not want to be tied up, you already have been…

Water Polo

Biggest lesbian experience, and then two dudes came up and you gave them handjobs. I’m seeing this with parabola in the rain, but why are the mens bodies completely underwater?

Edit:

Waited long enough for the voices to say you never played water polo, that was someone else using a radio, pretending to be you I guess.

Over and over again…

Blowjob after blowjob after blowjob after blowjob.

And oh, how nice, they “block it out of my mind” because “I don’t want one” which is sooooooo far from the truth but hey, you know what, at least it’s a lesser form of torture.

Psychic Visions of Cunnilingus

Voices say I want to be with one of your doppelgängers, not you, because if I tried to eat you out you’d shit in my mouth.

They say you put makeup on your whole body to hide your stretch marks, since Sygnes/Arvida, was also your child, so you’ve had two kids by now, Hedda being the second.

I just need them to stop talking to me and showing me these things.

edit:

Apparently, I’m supposed to get pissed off when I see visions of you with someone else but c’mon, it’s been 15 years…

Turned up to Reply

Apparently you’d have to be turned all the way up to reply to me, and while we’re talking about these things my so called “friends” had me knocked out and ejaculated into my knit cap? Then pulled out a gun and shot a blank.

The officer the next morning wanted to see if I was alive but I was apparently covered in jizz and there’s audio/video footage out there somewhere that no one wilL show me the voices say

Edit:

Now they’re saying it’s milk and cereal, we were in a 7/11 after all…

That’s true!

I didn’t see Donearl makeout with his fucking mother. They can “black out” my “mind”/“imagination” so I don’t see all things too clearly.

Ashton Kutcher

So you got to give Ashton Kutcher a blowjob. Was it everything you dreamed it would be?

Edit:

They say it was a “skull fuck”

You were 28

When you decided you never wanted to come back to Boston.

A.W. Root Beer turned me all the way up and you saw me having sex with someone, so you decided to make me throw up, but the sex continued.

I remember what I ate that night, it was a small portion of House Fried Rice from Yuen BBQ down the street, and I had like a fifth of Jack Daniel’s so my stomach was already on a rocky road.

Then I had a few beers and some shots at the house party, I was pretty far gone, but that was still a good night. For me at least.

More Bullshit

Voices say you wish I wasn’t a Japanese American

That you don’t know how to be yourself

That you would’ve learned how to be yourself if you stayed

Among other things

Not certain I want to keep writing this shit out but I kinda need to, as I don’t want to dwell on it

edit:

And you don’t want to be a woman because you’d be “closed for business”

But how long can you be a girl? Not a toddler I mean but the body doesn’t age like the mind. Idk where I’m going with this, I’ve been 19 for the last 17 years…