I'll use their real names

Voices in my head are telling me I’ve been a stand in, a “fall guy” for not one but two people

Aaron Bruce Wall Junior and another Michael Suliman Fonseca

They’re saying because I was blogging on Xanga as “Authentic_Black_Dragon” that they would read and print my blog out and represent themselves as my profile picture talking over what I can only assume was a Two Way Radio, a CB Radio while manipulating troposconic (troposonic?) conditions and communicating outside of the countries borders, to other countries, essentially.

Anyway, one thing they brought up about my ex, who, according to them, is not herself and doesn’t even identify as her name, is that she would’ve tried to kill me in my sleep and I’m lucky to have escaped that scenario and not have been murdered.

Anyway.

Barely holding it together

Eaten out on the MBTA

that’s the opposite

someone turned all the way up

pride parade when you were here

voices are in the air conditioning

blah blah blah blah blah

I’ve been walking past you, its all you can do

you want me to just reach out and grab you

that’s the idea

I just want someone to be direct with me

What you don't want me to write about

She wouldn’t be who she is

you wouldn’t be who you are

does it even matter?

did that other person, man woman or child get help?

commit suicide?

all this things and more

spare ribs

tooth paste

the list goes on

New York

Can’t see clearly

Voices say every time you try to take an action in regards to me, they turn you up so much so that it blurs your vision, effectively disabling your attempts to do anything.

edit: they say you can only be with me as a radio form, changing my music once in a while to be reminded of you

Australian Girl

Voices say that was you, and that you always wanted to be deported. So after I passed you on the train you sucked off a cop or something and got sent back home

Hog Tied

Did you go back to Argentina? Or is it that I’M “You” as in who I’m writing too… whatever

I did get tied up, did you get tied up? No way this happened in Argentina, it had to have happened after.

Edit:

No you do not want to be tied up, you already have been…

Water Polo

Biggest lesbian experience, and then two dudes came up and you gave them handjobs. I’m seeing this with parabola in the rain, but why are the mens bodies completely underwater?

Edit:

Waited long enough for the voices to say you never played water polo, that was someone else using a radio, pretending to be you I guess.

Over and over again…

Blowjob after blowjob after blowjob after blowjob.

And oh, how nice, they “block it out of my mind” because “I don’t want one” which is sooooooo far from the truth but hey, you know what, at least it’s a lesser form of torture.

Psychic Visions of Cunnilingus

Voices say I want to be with one of your doppelgängers, not you, because if I tried to eat you out you’d shit in my mouth.

They say you put makeup on your whole body to hide your stretch marks, since Sygnes/Arvida, was also your child, so you’ve had two kids by now, Hedda being the second.

I just need them to stop talking to me and showing me these things.

edit:

Apparently, I’m supposed to get pissed off when I see visions of you with someone else but c’mon, it’s been 15 years…

Turned up to Reply

Apparently you’d have to be turned all the way up to reply to me, and while we’re talking about these things my so called “friends” had me knocked out and ejaculated into my knit cap? Then pulled out a gun and shot a blank.

The officer the next morning wanted to see if I was alive but I was apparently covered in jizz and there’s audio/video footage out there somewhere that no one wilL show me the voices say

Edit:

Now they’re saying it’s milk and cereal, we were in a 7/11 after all…

That’s true!

I didn’t see Donearl makeout with his fucking mother. They can “black out” my “mind”/“imagination” so I don’t see all things too clearly.

Ashton Kutcher

So you got to give Ashton Kutcher a blowjob. Was it everything you dreamed it would be?

Edit:

They say it was a “skull fuck”